Soundtrack of My Life

I have long since forgotten when music became an essential part of me. It reaches down and touches my soul (or me for that matter). When I am driving and the windows are down and the music is as loud as my speakers will permit, I feel the fingers of love, heartbreak, passion or rock creep down and move something in me.

As I think about it, I was raised on rock and roll, country and classical music. My appreciation has grown over the years to include jazz, metal, emo and just about every other form of music. What determines whether I like the music is not so much what genre that song falls into, as much as whether it gets through my outer skin, sinking into the cracks of my armor and permeating my soul.

I believe that the music I listen to is the soundtrack of my life. The mood I am often leads me to turn up a particular song, or skip another. At one point I thought I was uncomfortable with silence, but I found I was just more comfortable with music. Music to me is a modern form of poetry. For thousands of years poets wrote to express heartbreak, pain, love, tragedy, bravery and passion. The modern poets just sing about these.

I am glad I have learned so much from music over the years. For when you hear that perfect song that completely expresses how you feel at a particular moment, you feel that you are less alone in the world. They seem to pick just the right words to make that moment unforgettable.

Music is such a big part of my memories. For if I hear, Metallica sing about love and trust and particularly enjoyable memory from my rebellious hard rock romance years, washes over me. Nat King Cole, Pink Floyd, The Doors, Beatles, Kate Nash, Johnny Cash, Joe Cocker, Celine Dion, Sarah McLachlan, Elton John, Peter Gabriel, The Eagles, Ella Fitzgerald, The Frey and so many more are all apart of my soundtrack of life. Every heart break, break up, first love, best friend or special moment has a song associated with it. Sometimes it is because I heard that song in my head during that particular moment or sometimes it is because I found that song reminded me of that memory.

I am forever thankful I am not deaf. I hope I never loose my passion for music or the depth to which I have grown because of it.


Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
- Sarah McLachlan, "I Will Remember You"

Don't go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before.
- Billy Joel, "Just the Way You Are"

All you touch and all you see,
Is all your life will ever be.
- Pink Floyd, "Breathe"

Because you're mine
I walk the line.
- Johnny Cash, "I Walk the Line"

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care?
- Pink "Glitter in the Air"

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